76. BPD + Father Trauma

John Penman talks: abusive cop father (trauma); bisexual shame; PTSD; BPD; self-harm; intuition; transforming pain into love; & more!

He grew up with a father who was traumatized by his experience as a cop in Detroit in the post-"Crack Boom" era (when a once glorious city fell apart). His father constantly threatened to kill himself. He shot his gun in the house. He threatened to bring John to "little boy jail" if he didn't behave the way his father wanted. John's Father was transformed by his untreated PTSD into an abusive person. John was forced to be his therapist (as a child) but eventually had to cut him out of his life. Here's the story of trauma creating trauma creating trauma (the vicious cycle).

We also discuss: trusting people who love us, paranoia, fear, positive affirmations, transforming pain into love, homophobia, being bisexual. cutting / self-harm (CW), inherited trauma, being your parent's therapist, trusting your intuition, being kind, plus LOTS more!

Contact John: johnthepenman.com IG @jnpnmn

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