Letter to LeKechia

02/13/22 • 22 min

The Leaves of a Victim never more with Steven Wilson

This episode is another Letter to someone special to me. I have spent many hours in therapy trying to understand our dynamic. I have tried in vain to comprehend my own broken heart.
I know I hurt her. I know she brought me back to humanity. The Monolithic human stone felt again; I just couldn’t handle feelings.
I love Lekechia, but we do not talk.
My sadness is beyond words right now. Perhaps the art therapy along with this letter may help me with this process.
I doubt it, but perhaps.

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Letter to Jeff

This episode I write another letter, but this one is to my childhood best friend from Crystal Lake, IL.
Jeff lived on Millard st. And I lived on Gardina which is called the Vista or at least is was back then. We were both the babies or last born in our families. He had two older brother; dan and Tom. I had an older sister Marie.
We went to West elementary together and called ourselves the Millard Mayhem crew. It was our possible WWF wresting tag team name when we got older.

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Self Help and the consequences of Shame

In this episode I refer to a book by Beverly Engel called “It wasn’t your fault”. It was a book brought up in a group therapy session that I and two others had read. I thought it would be a good topic for a podcast.
Her conclusions are based on her 30 plus years as a psychotherapist and as a victim of abuse herself. She believes that fault will manifest in Shame and that Shame can be negated by what she calls Self-compassion.
I do not agree with her findings, but I respect her hard work and frankness in her own life story to aid the reader in utilizing her solution.
I don’t put much weight into self-help books when things like sex abuse and traumatic events have altered lives forever. This is just my opinion, and I mean no harm or any disrespect to Beverly Engel or anyone who finds books like this to help them through the storm.