4- THE GATEKEEPER: PART ONE

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10/20/21 • 13 min

In this episode I read a poem that I wrote a few years ago. It’s the first part of an 8 part series that I call THE GATEKEEPER. This is some of my favorite writing that I’ve ever done, and I’ve always said that the whole world needs to read it. So instead, I’ll read it and you can listen! I will also give some more details and some hidden things that I don’t really get to share with those who’ve read it. I’m excited to add this to my podcast, and I hope you enjoy it!! (I’ve added the text form below) Remember to download and share! Thank you!
Life.... Who said you have to do it alone?
PART ONE

Hello old friend. It's been a few years since we last talked. I want to hear about everything you've been up to since then. Tell me, how are you? Have you made any new friends? Who do you love? Do you enjoy your job? How is your mom?

Look, I've been meaning to apologize for almost taking her away from you. I know you can't live without her, I was being selfish. Friends shouldn't do that to friends. We are friends, right? Even tho we don't talk like we used to, and you don't write me letters anymore, I still consider you my friend. I hope the same goes for you.

I hope you know that I only use your family and friends in order to get closer to you. I wanted you to get to know me, and I couldn't make that happen without them. Is that why you don't write anymore, because you understand who I am? I hope it's that, and not because you're mad. It's your happiness that I seek. Hopefully one day that happiness will lead you to me.

Until next time my love, may you always think of me.

Love, Suicide

Until next time my love, may you always think of me.

Love, Suicide

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3- MY EXPERIENCE WITH THE SIX HUMAN NEEDS

In this episode I talk about my experience with the six human needs and why I've become obsessed with them. About 3-3.5 years ago I came face to face with the one thing I thought I’d never do. Which is suicide. Anyone who has been there, and knows what it’s like to be in that state of mind knows how scary it can be. Luckily I had a moment where I was able to recall a Tony Robbins video that I found on YouTube. Even more, luckily I was able to stop myself and the state of mind long enough to go watch that video again. Had it not been for that moment, I’m confident I wouldn’t be here today. Listen in as I take you through that moment and how I was able to pull myself out of the darkness. Subscribe, download and share! Thanks for tuning in!
Life... Who said you have to do it alone?

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5- HOW OUR NEEDS CAN TRICK US, AND THE INFINITE CYCLE.

In this episode I will discuss the clever ways we can be tricked by our needs. As well as the importance of seeing this and learning from it. I will also introduce what's called the infinite cycle. And how our needs create this, as well as how to get out of it.
I'm very excited to share this with you all. I have had many experiences with both my needs tricking me, as well as getting stuck in the infinite cycle. And I can't wait for you to see how it might apply to you.
There are a few takeaways I'd like to share:
1) Be aware of what is REALLY driving you. This will help you become more self aware. It will also help keep you from feeling lost because you will be able to see how your actions and behaviors are not aligning with who you want to be.
2) The infinite cycle happens when our perception does not align with reality.
3) In the infinite cycle we go back and forth between different emotions. And in doing so, we are meeting our needs.
4) There are two ways out of the infinite cycle. We can either go up, or we can go down.
5) Most of the time we go down. And when we go down, we do so with distractions. And in doing so, we are also meeting our needs.
6) The way to free ourselves of the infinite cycle is by going up. We do this when we change our perception to align with reality.
7) There are three elements that make up our perception. They are: Focus; Language; Physiology.
8) In order to change our perception and align it with reality we must change or adjust our needs in a way that better matches the truth of reality.
Thank you so much for listening. Please, download and share!
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