Master Your Perception with Clyde Young

Here’s the latest part of The Gatekeeper series! Let me know what you think! Don’t forget to share!! Thanks for all the love and support!
Life.... Who said you have to do it alone?

In this Episode, I read part seven of my Gatekeeper series. In this one, Depression is responding to my letter to him. After this, there is one more part to the series. However! I’m working on part nine, and have an idea for part ten! I’m excited to be working on new content! Thank you for listening. Please, download and share!!
PART SEVEN

A LETTER FROM MY ENEMY

Dear Clyde,

I must say, I was surprised to see that you wrote me. From my experience, people like you tend to be difficult to connect with. Whether it be because of their optimistic perception (so fucking annoying by the way)... Or because of their total ignorance towards my existence. Either way, people like you are the most elusive for me and my crew.

The pesky optimists pose challenges because they always seem to find light in the darkest of places. Sometimes I think they're just too fucking stupid to be in touch with reality. Like, I swear I could paint over the faces of half their family picture, and those little bastards will just reprint the damn thing and hang it back up!

Then there are the ignorant little bitches. They're either too caught up in their own existence, or so terrified of my crew and I, that they completely block us out of their entity. They're even more aggravating than the optimistic fuck heads because, unlike the optimists, it seems like there really isn't a single second of vulnerability for us to sneak our way in.

As for you... You've always been "the one that got away" so to say. I think it's because of your optimistic mind. However, your particular optimism is kind of one of a kind... It's like, you always seem to find that peaceful piece of mind, but that vulnerable piece of time has always been easier (than most) for us to find. And lately it has been a longer duration of time... Which we felt was a good sign. We thought your optimistic tank was finally running dry. That is, until I read your letter...

Now I see you were just allowing yourself to live in that vulnerable state of mind so that you could gather Intel on this organization of mine. I must say, that was rather brave... Essentially you were living behind enemy lines. I should have known, but your uncanny ability to portray a broken but courageous man, while in the presence of your friends and fam... And then to see that persona shed like snake skin when no one was looking... We truly thought we had infiltrated your heart while it was broken. Shit! I'm just now realizing why we haven't been able to find your mind...

See, usually once we've gained access to the heart we can follow the tracks of feelings to the mind. You humans are so foolish to think your feelings originate within your heart. I guess I shouldn't be so rash because we are grateful for this misconception (which we didn't create by the way, that misconception was developed by your people). As you said, we use your most delicate insecurities by following their tracks back to where they came from... Your mind.

Anyways, you may have won this battle, but I assure you this is just the beginning of the war between you, me, and my crew.

-With respect,

Depression-

Commander and Chief of Dismay

Oh, and P.S. you can hate me all you fucking want, but your ambition is a pile of shit without my existence.
Life.... Who said you have to do it alone?

BONUS!! Since part four was so short, I figured I’d release this one today!!! Thanks for listening!!
In this episode, I read part five of my Gatekeeper series. This was probably the piece that I realized that i had a tenement talent fora different kind of writing. One where I can create a visual through my writing. Thanks for tuning in!

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Life.... Who said you have to do it alone?

PART FIVE

"THE TOWN"

Dear friends and family,

My journey has been quite difficult so far. I'm not entirely sure where I have just passed through. There were some things that looked and felt familiar, but there were also things I did not recognize. At times it felt like a place I'd been before, but then I'd pass something that made me feel uncertain and out of place.

One thing I know for sure is that I did not like anything about it. It was so dark and gloomy that I thought about trying to find a way around it, but I didn't want to get lost, so I knew I had pass through. There wasn't a single light to be found anywhere, and it was as if a rainstorm was permanently positioned above the entire town.

When I first entered the "city limits", it felt as if I had just been teleported to the edge of the universe, and everything I had ever learned was completely irrelevant. It felt like I forgot how to walk... I didn't know how to talk... I even struggled to breath. It felt like the earth stopped spinning, but at the same time, it was as if it began spinning faster, and gravity became too unbearable to stand on my feet.

It was like being trapped in an elevator, and that elevator was going up, but it was rapidly gaining speed. Claustrophobia was suffocating me, yet I was in a vastly open space with fresh air. It was the most intense pain I'd ever felt, but that pain had a familiar sting...

After some time, reality slowly started shifting back into place. It was like watching every single pixel, one by one, as they create an image on the computer. I caught my breath, I rose from my knees to my shaky legs. Afraid of turning back, and experiencing it all over again, but afraid of what else that desolate place might have in store for me. I gained my composure, and tried to navigate my way through.

As I moved on, there seemed to be separate areas that briefly gave me different feelings, but the scene remained dark and gloomy. It all seemed to be new, but there was a strange familiarity throughout.

At one point, I tried to make a desperate run, and escape the terror as fast as I could. Before I got very far outside of town, I found myself right back at the beginning... At the edge of the universe, helpless and full of anxiety. I tried making a run for it several times, and every time I ended up right back at the beginning. It was like the town was just one big loop. I'd run up one side, and down the other, right back where I started.

If there is a Hell, I'm certain I just went through it. It was a nightmare that was stuck on repeat. The same scene, the same emotions, the same feelings. Every time it started over, I knew exactly what to expect, but I couldn't change anything about it... No matter how hard I tried. It continued like this until I decided to embrace it all. Instead of running straight through, I explored. I walked down every street, every alley, and eventually things started to change... Or at least they appeared to. I discovered more parts of the town that felt familiar, and I felt a bit of comfort.

Before I knew it, the town was behind me. I was worried that I would still end up back at the beginning, but as I got further and further I realized I was no longer stuck in the loop. I was no longer trapped in the town of Heartbreak. Hopefully I can continue this journey without having to ever go through it again.

Anyways, I must carry on. I'll write again soon.

Love, Clyde

In this one, I read part two of my gatekeeper series. This is my letter back to suicide. As I read this one, I tried to put more emotion into it. Let me know how I did! I will include the text for below. Thanks for listening! Download and share!
If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, please call the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE 800-273-8255
Also, not entirely sure when, but there will be a three digit number, just like 911, that you can use to reach the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE. It will be 988. I love this and think it is incredible. Just like an emergency, reaching the suicide hotline should not take googling it to find it. It should be something simple. And I’m very excited for this to happen!
Life.... Who said you have to do it alone?
PART TWO

Dear suicide,
I'm not going to tell you about my friends, my love, my job, or my mom. I know better than that now. The only thing I will tell you is, I'm doing great.

I want you to know that I've hated you since the day you took my friend. He was only in the fifth grade, and you took him away without even blinking an eye. I was so afraid of you because I thought, "only the devil himself could be so evil". Then you took my uncle. I'll admit, that was a clever plan. At the time, I didn't understand, but I realize now that it was the only way for you to get inside of my fathers heart and soul. You waited until the perfect time. Then you used my mom as a distraction while you took him from me. A surprise attack, as if you hoped it would force me to take my guard down. Instead, it made me want to fight.

I came up with a battle plan, and my cousin was my right hand man. Together, He and I were going to defeat your army of addiction, depression, abuse, and all the other evil pawns you have... Until you took him down. Without him, I've had to battle a new fear, illuminated by your light. A fear of bringing those who I care about into the front lines of this war that I wage upon you and your evil reign. A fear of encouraging people to believe, only to watch them fall to your feet.

After all of this, how could you think I would consider you as my friend? Is it because of the poems I write about you? I write about you in effort to expose you. I hope that the more I shed light on you, the less fear people have for you. I want them to realize, there is a little bit of you, hiding inside of us all... Maybe then they can see how weak you really are. Maybe then, they can stop hiding from you, and you won't be able to overpower anyone anymore.

My happiness will never lead me to you. In fact, my happiness is, in some ways, inspired by you. You think that by taking my family, and friends will bring me closer to you? All it has done, is made me more aware of you, which has inspired me to be nothing like you. It has inspired me to fight against you.

So, until next time, I will always be thinking of you. I will continue to exploit you, and raise awareness of how to defeat you.

Sincerely, Clyde

As Derek Robinson and I, Clyde Young, weave through the emotional and mental intricacies of life on our latest Master Your Perception episode, we invite you to join us in a profound exploration that promises to enlighten and transform. This week blends the raw power of visualization meditation in leadership training with the captivating symbolism of spirals, circling us back to the Native American belief of life’s cyclical essence. Our heartfelt dialogues dig into the emotional charge of our week's experiences, how they shape us, and the importance of emotional and cognitive communication in our daily lives.
This episode is a tapestry of personal anecdotes and the wisdom they hold. We've all been there, wrestling with guilt and the shadows of our past, but it's the art of balancing them with discipline and love that forms the cornerstone of our discussion. The power of inherited energies and their role in societal movements is also up for examination, along with the unexpected insights numerology has brought into Derek’s life. As we share these stories and strategies, we reinforce the sanctity of confidentiality for anyone reaching out, extending a hand to those navigating their own emotional landscapes.
Embracing vulnerabilities and imperfections is our final chapter, where I open up about personal reflections and the peace that comes with accepting one's whole self. It's about finding courage in the face of self-awareness, the challenge of vulnerability, and the wisdom in our shared human experience. We thank you, our listeners, for tuning in and hope that our candid conversation empowers you to stride forward with a renewed sense of purpose and bravery to confront your own vulnerabilities. Join us, and let's continue to master our perceptions together.