Inner Stillness Outer Chaos

Have you ever had a moment where it feels like a part of the authentic version of you just fell into place?

I just had another moment like that this past week, and it shifted a lot of things for me. All the way from sudoku and jigsaw puzzles on my phone, to how I view mental health medications for myself.

In a recent session with my therapist, she told me something which I already have heard a thousand times. She said “Remember you’re a human being not a human doing.”

I found it so frustrating because I felt like I was already doing that...

Kind of...

Mostly...

Maybe...

Okay, so not really.

Have you ever had that moment where you suddenly feel like the clouds have parted, the sun in warming your face again and you have some of your hope restored?

Hope that you didn't even realize you had lost?

That's exactly what happened to me recently and in this week's episode I tell you what happened and give you the perfect song to dance to and help bring out this feeling.

Because the hope you’re searching for might be just around the corner like it was for me.

I came to a realization recently that I thought might be helpful to share because it highlighted one of the sneaky ways we can sabotage ourselves. It’s so sneaky because it feels like we’re really just trusting our own intuition and experience - but really it’s just trying to keep everything the same because, to our nervous system, “the same” is safe. But as I’m learning, living with OCD adds a whole other layer of complexity to everything.

Yoga has absolutely changed my life, but not solely from the mat based asana practice. However, when I was first introduced to yoga that’s all I knew it to be! Yoga was where you went to feel calm, stretch and maybe get stronger depending on the class that you signed up for. Only after completing my yoga teacher training and teaching for a while did I encounter the complexities of Westernized yoga, which led me to question my role in perpetuating cultural appropriation. As my beloved practice crashed down around me, I was left to navigate the intersection of spirituality as an atheist, privilege as a disabled white woman, and authenticity in my desire to honor the true essence of yoga. This is a story of evolution, reflection, and the pursuit of truth.

We are constantly being bombarded with questions that divide us, especially with social media and traditional media.

But when it comes to things like human rights, religious beliefs and our freedom - do we have to pick a side?

My answer?

It depends.

P.S. the song for this episode is Universal Soldier by Buffy Sainte-Marie