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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir

Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir

Tara Boyce

Warning: This might be hard to hear. It was hard to LIVE. Having an honest dialogue about what active addiction was like isn’t pretty, but I’m hoping that even if you come for the train wreck you’ll stay for the recovery conversation. Settle in for notes from the thick of two decades of substance abuse, mental health struggles, romantic obsession, rehabs, hospitals, institutions and general despair, to the last few years of coming out the other side. I've had a lot of time to collect insight about recovery, and to stay sober I had to be as obsessed with getting better as I was with staying sick, and I hope to share some of that insight with you. Through writing a memoir about my recovery from alcoholism and mental illness, I realized, my recovery is an ongoing process, and also an interactive one, based on shared insight and dialogue. So why would a book about those things be any different? I want to share my story while engaging in a conversation about the nature of addiction and recovery, to share tools and crowdsource far more wisdom than I could export on my own. Join me as I read chapters from my memoir and join the discussion about recovery, addiction, mental health, spirituality and humanism. I invite you to e-mail any questions or comments to: [email protected]

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - The Perils of Perfectionism

The Perils of Perfectionism

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06/16/21 • 31 min

I certainly had a lot of the 'isms' of alcoholism before I even touched a drink. My personality was fertile ground for disorders to develop even as a child.Reflections on how perfectionism limits living a full life, the beliefs behind it, and a few strategies I use to talk myself out of it. Audiobook Chapter 2: The Thoughts, goes through childhood anxieties and developing cognitive distortions.Please send questions, comments or just say ‘hi’ [email protected]://www.fa...

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - But Everybody's Doing It!

But Everybody's Doing It!

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07/21/21 • 33 min

It’s easy to obscure a drinking problem when everyone else drinks. It was all happening in plain sight. It wasn’t a PROBLEM! I was nineteen! I liked to PARTY! And so did EVERYONE ELSE! In this chapter I drift further into denial when drinking is normalized by friends, family and a culture that thinks drinking is just the obvious way to have a good time. It also delves into the awkwardness and anxiety of trying to convince myself I was having a good time when I was really just desperate to be ...

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Things Fall Apart

Things Fall Apart

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06/23/21 • 31 min

Addicted To Recovery : The Interactive Memoir Episode 3: When did I know I had a problem? What are the red flags? In my case it was muddled by a personality that enjoyed the chaos, and thought drinking was just an extension of being a bit more dramatic than everyone else. In chapter three, we flash forward again to the onset of alcoholic drinking, as I struggled to process a loss while trying to cut it at a challenging performing arts school. Unable to manage my emotions I took to day d...

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - When It Was All Supposed To Happen

When It Was All Supposed To Happen

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07/28/21 • 31 min

So the 'S' word... no, not the one referring to bodily functions, but SPIRITUALITY. There. I said it. This episode breaks down my still rather dubious relationship with the word itself, but the ways in which embracing the principles behind it, as I understand them, (and even the ways I DON'T understand them) has aided in my recovery and life in general, if I stop being so hung up on having to have all the answers, because really, no one does.In the memoir, time to hoot and holler at one of th...

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Disgraced Drama Queen

Disgraced Drama Queen

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06/30/21 • 30 min

Addicted To Recovery : The Interactive Memoir Episode 4: What does it really mean to drink alone as opposed to with other people? Drinking with others was still, essentially, how I was trying to manage my own mind, not other people's. For me, it was an indication that the relationship I had with my mind had become more strained than the most forced social situations. I figured alcohol could force us to get along the same way it had with various frenemies over the years. It had the opposite ef...

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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Time To Say Goodbye

Time To Say Goodbye

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04/19/22 • 34 min

My grandfather passed away, and I was useless. I didn’t go to the hospital in his last few weeks. Hospitals really bummed me out. I mean I was fragile. God forbid I carry any extra emotional weight. I checked out. I did nothing but try to drink less, feeling terribly burdened by this sacrifice, and that was all I could summon. I couldn’t handle complex emotions, my own or others’, without alcohol. However, WITH alcohol I ran the risk of completely mishandling those emotions. I spent all ...
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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Not At All Like The Movies

Not At All Like The Movies

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05/03/22 • 35 min

My first rehab was awful. Often, when I externalized my misery in one way or another, I can look back and say, naw, well, that was really more of a me thing. Yet with this rehab, I look back and still think it was awful.Was I miserable the whole time? Absolutely. Was I also sober the whole time? Yup. For many of the residents there being in portage meant they weren’t on the streets, they were away from abusive relationships, they were out of prison, and many, probably, just not DEAD, and that...
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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Are You Buying The Stairway To Heaven?

Are You Buying The Stairway To Heaven?

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10/29/21 • 40 min

So, time to get controversial and talk about 12 step recovery! People have very strong feelings about 12-step, what it is, what it isn’t, if it’s bad, if it’s good, if it’s a helpful community, if it’s a cult, whether you need to find God, whether it’s 2 well-to-do men from the 1930s and why should we listen to them, of whether there are wrong or right ways to do it, and the types of people it can help or not help, so many opinions.A lot of this noise gets in the way of what I believe is a ve...
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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Functional Alcoholism

Functional Alcoholism

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01/06/22 • 34 min

Over the next year, I kept both a job and a boyfriend, and was thus performing normalcy to a dazzling degree that surprised even me. Since the incident and my outpatient therapy, every time I drank and nothing terrible happened I gave myself permission to drink more often and still, nothing catastrophic occurred. I’d broken the system. I’d graduated into what I believed was functional alcoholism, and was perfectly content to stay there indefinitely.People speak of addiction as progressive, so...
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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir - Monster

Monster

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06/02/22 • 35 min

It seems the Johnny Depp vs. Amber Heard trial made me have a whole lot of feelings. Particularly, where do ideas and 'victim' and 'perpetrator' fall apart when there is wrongdoing on both sides, or when an environment or relationship is in itself intrinsically chaotic. I have been in plenty of mutual destructive relationships, and substance abuse seems to change the rules of engagement.To what extent do we hold people to different ethical standards when they are intoxicated? Should we? To wh...
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How many episodes does Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir have?

Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir currently has 29 episodes available.

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The podcast is about Podcasts, Self-Improvement and Education.

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The episode title 'Things Fall Apart' is the most popular.

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The average episode length on Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir is 34 minutes.

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Episodes of Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir are typically released every 14 days.

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The first episode of Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir was released on Jun 9, 2021.

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