S1 E5: How the illusions we agree to keep us stuck.

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11/03/23 • 70 min

In this episode of "Waking Up Together," we courageously delve into the intricate and sometimes unsettling realm of control and disintegration. Our exploration centers around a profound question: What am I afraid will happen when I release the illusion of control, and what is revealed about our structure of control?

As we navigate the awakening process, we often experience a sense of falling apart, disintegrating, and free-falling into the unknown. When we recognize that the choices that have led us to this point no longer serve us, it can be an agonizing experience, like a part of us is dying along with those outdated choices.

Parting ways with old ideas, modes of relating, and self-identifications can be a terrifying ordeal. We candidly share how many of our past decisions were influenced by fear, the instinct for survival, and a perception of limited agency. However, as our awareness expands, we explore how we begin to discern the multitude of options before us, and this newfound awareness can be both disorienting and liberating.

We acknowledge that our entanglement in binary thinking, such as life or death, love or hate, belonging or exile, is being challenged as we untether from this narrow frame of existence. We reflect on how having options can be both overwhelming and liberating simultaneously. Join us as we delve into the intricate mechanisms we employ—behaviors, people, and identities—to reassemble ourselves when we've been shattered and come undone. This episode embodies the full moon lunar eclipse that it was recorded under, holding the paradox of both/and, exploring the dark and together, learning to trust this free fall and embrace the unknown.
***We do want to note that this episode comes with an activation warning as there are themes of self harm and an eating disorder. Please take care of your body as this conversation might wake up spaces and places where there is tenderness, pain, memory and/or experiential knowledge. Thank you for joining us, as we wake up. Together.***

Waking Up Together is an AiRE Healing & Kaia Evolutions Podcast.
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Thank you for waking up with us.
-Eileen & Jess

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S1 E4: How expansion reveals every contraction.

Join hosts Eileen and Jess in this heart-opening episode as they embark on a profound exploration of the waking up process and the power of turning our gaze inward. Together, they courageously delve into the uncharted territory of self-discovery, uncovering the hidden aspects that reside within the vast expanse of our inner world.

Through introspection and deep self-reflection, Eileen and Jess navigate the beliefs that accompany the journey of expansion and contraction, creation and destruction, and the intricate dance between intrusion on and reclamation of self.

In this episode, they also delve into the compounding nature of time and how it can unexpectedly become an agent of suffering. They explore the profound impact of expanding our relationships with ourselves and others, and the inevitable changes that unfold as a result.

This episode is a full one. An embodied one. An integrated one. A conversation that asks the question...what does it feel like to step into the space of expansion and claim all of my parts?

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S1 E6: How the aching body is a revelation.

Join Eileen and Jess as they delve deep into the intricate interplay between awakening and our physical bodies. In this episode, they explore the question, "What changes physiologically as we undergo the process of waking up?" Their conversation shines a spotlight on the sensations, aches, and pains that surface as we step into embodied consciousness. Eileen and Jess share how the awakening process can trigger the release of survival energy that has long been contained within us, often held back by the autonomic survival responses of fight, flight, freeze, and fawn. As this energy unfurls, it surges forth like a flood, colliding with constrictions and deep-seated beliefs that have hindered us from expressing our true selves freely. Throughout their conversation, Eileen and Jess emphasize the significance of recognizing boundaries that have been crossed and unveiling the unspoken "no's" and silent "yeses" that have quietly shaped our lives. Their insights reveal how our pain body and dream body serve as instructive guides, leading us to the areas where we need support in breaking free from the grip of these nonverbal, non consensual contracts that have subtly influenced our existence.

Episode Mention:
Staci K Haines
https://www.stacihaines.com/
Learn more about her work in the link above. We discuss the benefits of her Embodied Consent Practice in this episode.
For reference, you can check out and download Eileen's FREE video and pdf of the practice by going to: https://linktr.ee/kaiaevolutions