Ravenscourt: Chapter Three: A Twist of Fate

04/06/20 • 8 min

In the first half of my life I accumulated many things. An education, money, a career, a partner, a place to call home, but in the last half of my life most of these things have slipped away. I know that some losses will always happen, however there are still things I refuse to accept; such as lies and the destruction of innocence.

My colleagues say it’s unethical to share these sessions with you. But in my heart I know Alisha would want her story to be heard. She was so desperate for anyone to believe her. I didn’t at the time and now in a twist of fate, she’s the only person who can lend credence to this story...

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Ravenscourt: Chapter Two: Death's Door

Those who remember Ravenscourt can’t bare to speak its name, yet somehow they also can’t seem to forgive themselves enough to forget it...

This is because I have received a letter from what I believe to be a delusional voice in the head of my former patient, Alicia. It refers to itself as ‘Boda’. The name of child would give to an imaginary friend or a pet. But I believe this creature walks on two legs. And is far more human than I once believed...

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Ravenscourt: Chapter Four: Physician Heal Thyself

In my recovery I practiced mindfulness. Unfortunately it was not popular at the time I was seeing patients. I truly believe it would have been immeasurably helpful to them, some of them. The best description I’ve heard of it is that your thoughts are like a waterfall and the goal is to find a space behind the waterfall: We are not our thoughts.

Of course this does remind me of Alicia’s assertion that Boda existed in ‘the shadow behind the mirror’. A kind of dark mindfulness. A malevolent consciousness that exists behind our perceptions of reality.

There is more to this world then what is reflected back to us and I must now return to Ravenscourt.