Look me in the eye

11/06/22 • 30 min

Why is it so hard for me to maintain eye contact? Am I afraid of intimacy (into me, you see)? I can’t even seem to maintain eye contact with myself.
In this week’s episode, I reflect on the topic of eye contact and moving past feelings of inadequacy and shame. Despite my fear of rejection, I invite you to look me in the eye.
PS - after recording this episode I learned that there’s a song titled “Into me you see” by Katy Perry. I am interested to listen and possibly share on it in a future episode.
Trigger warning: depression, suicide

Previous Episode

I finally did it!

Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday, dear me! Happy 50th birthday to me!
A tremendous amount of fear has been bypassed. Despite all the voices of shame and self-doubt, I am publishing this episode. Welcome to the very first episode of my podcast. In this episode, I share my experience with a very embarrassing recent situation at the store and more importantly my hope for this podcast.
There is no editing here. No re-recording. The raw me is exposed, and it’s terrifying. But that’s okay. Here, "my humanity is showing" to be a source of hope for others. I pray my story reaches those who need to hear it.
Trigger warning: depression, suicide ideation and attempts

Next Episode

Why can’t I focus?

Since I can remember, I have had trouble focusing. My brain is often completely scattered, and thoughts seem to pop around in my head like little fleas. This inability to focus has caused great pain to those closest to me. In this episode, I reflect on some of those experiences and am grateful for a relatively healthier response to a recent incident.
In the first half of this episode, I share a couple of challenges related to recording this incredibly vulnerable podcast. Aside from the fear of being known for the real me, I have also been afraid to share my journey on the controversial topic of God.
Trigger warning: depression, suicide