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Knockin‘ Doorz Down - AJ McLean | From Early Stardom with the Backstreet Boys to Alcohol & Drug Addiction to Recovery, Mental Health Advocate & Pretty Messed Up Podcast Host

AJ McLean | From Early Stardom with the Backstreet Boys to Alcohol & Drug Addiction to Recovery, Mental Health Advocate & Pretty Messed Up Podcast Host

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07/26/21 • 95 min

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Knockin‘ Doorz Down

AJ came from a broken but supportive home. He didn’t know his dad and wasn’t part of his life growing up. He was raised by his grandparents and mother in a 3-bedroom apartment. At the age of 15, AJ got his record deal with the Backstreet Boys. His newfound stardom gave AJ the motivation to move out of his house at the age of 17, after getting in a huge fight with his mom.

AJ didn’t actually start drinking until he was 25. He started with hard alcohol right off the bat and got worse from there. Then during an early morning music video shoot, he tried cocaine for the first time. After that, he was buying large amounts from a friend in Florida. AJ was up to an 8 ball a day. Eventually AJ overdosed and was revived with an adrenaline needle, just like the scene with Uma Thurman in Pulp Fiction. You would think that would be enough for AJ to stop, but it wasn’t.

In 2001, the Backstreet Boys were supposed to throw out the first pitch at a Boston Red Sox game. AJ was partying the night before and woke up hungover, and told his manager that he wasn’t going. This prompted a fight with his band members where he quit the band on the spot. The manager gave him the option of going to rehab, and he accepted.

AJ stopped drinking and using drugs for the first time in 2001. He was able to stay sober for 7 years. Then in 2008, out of the blue, their friend Shania Twain had a concert coming up in Las Vegas. Originally, AJ wanted to do a date night with his wife at the show, but she couldn’t make it and said to go by himself. AJ knew his wife wouldn’t be there with him, so immediately he called his dealer. He thought he would be able to sober up before coming back home, but he just couldn’t stop.

Then again in 2019, Backstreet Boys had their massive DNA World Reunion Tour. When AJ got the call to go to Vegas for the residency, his wife called him and told him “Don’t even bother coming home” because she knew he was partying too much. The breaking point for him was when he got home, his daughter came to sit by him on the couch. Normally she cuddles with him, but this time she said “you don’t smell like my dad” and this crushed AJ. This was the catalyst to get help and begin his sobriety.

The pandemic recently was the silver lining for AJ. None of the temptations from the road were messing with his mental health, so he could really focus on his family and health. AJ has now been sober for 20 months. He’s traveled twice by himself now, and hasn’t relapsed. Now he’s part of the “Pretty Messed Up Podcast” along with Cheryl Burke & Rene Elizondo where they talk about their problems, addictions and how they’re dealing with them. Now with his new podcast, AJ hopes to remove the stigma with mental health by speaking openly about his experiences.

This is AJ McLean in his own words, on Knockin’ Doorz Down.

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For more information on the Carlos Vieira Foundation and the Race 2B Drug-Free, Race to End the Stigma, and Race For Autism programs visit:

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AJ came from a broken but supportive home. He didn’t know his dad and wasn’t part of his life growing up. He was raised by his grandparents and mother in a 3-bedroom apartment. At the age of 15, AJ got his record deal with the Backstreet Boys. His newfound stardom gave AJ the motivation to move out of his house at the age of 17, after getting in a huge fight with his mom.

AJ didn’t actually start drinking until he was 25. He started with hard alcohol right off the bat and got worse from there. Then during an early morning music video shoot, he tried cocaine for the first time. After that, he was buying large amounts from a friend in Florida. AJ was up to an 8 ball a day. Eventually AJ overdosed and was revived with an adrenaline needle, just like the scene with Uma Thurman in Pulp Fiction. You would think that would be enough for AJ to stop, but it wasn’t.

In 2001, the Backstreet Boys were supposed to throw out the first pitch at a Boston Red Sox game. AJ was partying the night before and woke up hungover, and told his manager that he wasn’t going. This prompted a fight with his band members where he quit the band on the spot. The manager gave him the option of going to rehab, and he accepted.

AJ stopped drinking and using drugs for the first time in 2001. He was able to stay sober for 7 years. Then in 2008, out of the blue, their friend Shania Twain had a concert coming up in Las Vegas. Originally, AJ wanted to do a date night with his wife at the show, but she couldn’t make it and said to go by himself. AJ knew his wife wouldn’t be there with him, so immediately he called his dealer. He thought he would be able to sober up before coming back home, but he just couldn’t stop.

Then again in 2019, Backstreet Boys had their massive DNA World Reunion Tour. When AJ got the call to go to Vegas for the residency, his wife called him and told him “Don’t even bother coming home” because she knew he was partying too much. The breaking point for him was when he got home, his daughter came to sit by him on the couch. Normally she cuddles with him, but this time she said “you don’t smell like my dad” and this crushed AJ. This was the catalyst to get help and begin his sobriety.

The pandemic recently was the silver lining for AJ. None of the temptations from the road were messing with his mental health, so he could really focus on his family and health. AJ has now been sober for 20 months. He’s traveled twice by himself now, and hasn’t relapsed. Now he’s part of the “Pretty Messed Up Podcast” along with Cheryl Burke & Rene Elizondo where they talk about their problems, addictions and how they’re dealing with them. Now with his new podcast, AJ hopes to remove the stigma with mental health by speaking openly about his experiences.

This is AJ McLean in his own words, on Knockin’ Doorz Down.

For Carlos Vieira's autobiography Knockin' Doorz Down

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/

For 51FIFTY use the discount code KDD20 for 20% off!

https://51fiftyltm.com/

https://www.facebook.com/51FIFTYLTM

https://www.instagram.com/51fiftyltm/

https://twitter.com/51fiftyltm

For more on the Knockin' Doorz Down podcast and to follow us on social media

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/podcast

https://www.instagram.com/knockindoorzdown/

https://www.facebook.com/knockingdoorsdown/

https://twitter.com/kddmediacompany

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUSJ5ooBFqso8lfFiiIM-5g/

For more information on the Carlos Vieira Foundation and the Race 2B Drug-Free, Race to End the Stigma, and Race For Autism programs visit:

https://www.carlosvieirafoundation.org/

https://www.facebook.com/CVFoundation/

https://www.instagram.com/carlosvieirafoundation/

For more on AJ McLean:

https://www.facebook.com/AJMcLean

https://www.instagram.com/aj_mclean/

https://twitter.com/aj_mclean

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaLkX_Si9eHmSQV30eaX2UA

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undefined - Austin Reed | From Cystic Fibrosis, ADHD & Addiction to Sobriety & Successful TV & Radio Personality

Austin Reed | From Cystic Fibrosis, ADHD & Addiction to Sobriety & Successful TV & Radio Personality

Austin inherited his addictive genes from his father’s side of the family. His father’s mother had schizophrenia, and many of his other family members have bipolar disorder. At the age of 3, Austin was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis. The doctors told his parents that he would have about 18 to 19 years to live. It was tough growing up having that hanging over his head, which would lead to depression and anxiety issues early on in his life.

As a kid, it was tough for Austin to do his schoolwork and remain focused. He learned later that he had ADHD. He would have trouble just sitting still in class, and even doing small tasks or projects were difficult to finish.

Early on, Austin became obsessed with the world of broadcasting. It was one of the only things that kept his attention and later developed into a career. At age 9, he had a broadcasting studio built in the basement of his parent’s house. He would create his own shows for public access in his hometown. The local news came out to do a story on him and after that, it propelled him even further into broadcasting. At the age of 17, he already had a job with the local FOX television news station in Portland. This is when his drug use and experimentation started to take off.

At this time, Austin’s mother had a heart attack, so he moved back to Oregon to be closer to her. In Medford, there was no cystic fibrosis clinic, he wasn’t getting the care he needed. He was getting really bad headaches and was prescribed Vicodin. This started his new addiction, where he was taking 3 pills every 4 hours, to get the effects he wanted. Then his doctor started prescribing stronger medication like morphine, liquid oxycodone, soma, suboxone other various pain meds.

Then after those meds, he started getting addicted to Adderall, for his ADHD which started acting up and getting worse during his time. This was a really bad combination, so he stopped taking the crazy combinations of meds, and unfortunately switched to alcohol. Alcohol was everywhere and readily available, which made it really tough for him to quit. One of his close friends came from New Mexico, stayed with him for a while, and ended up dying from an alcoholic seizure while they were drinking together one night.

Even after the loss of his friend, he continued to drink until it really got out of control. He was drinking at all times of the day, and he finally realized enough was enough. He checked himself into rehab and has been sober for the past 6 months.

Austin now hosts the Reed Report and Central Valley Talk here in Central California. He continues to get therapy, and support from his wife and twin daughters, and family to continue his sobriety. Now Austin wants to share his story in the hopes that it can change other lives for the better.

This is Austin Reed in his own words, on Knockin’ Doorz Down.

For Carlos Vieira's autobiography Knockin' Doorz Down

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/

For 51FIFTY use the discount code KDD20 for 20% off!

https://51fiftyltm.com/

For more on the Knockin' Doorz Down podcast and to follow us on social media

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/podcast

For more information on the Carlos Vieira Foundation and the Race 2B Drug-Free, Race to End the Stigma, and Race For Autism programs visit:

https://www.carlosvieirafoundation.org/

For more on Austin Reed:

http://austinreednetwork.com/

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undefined - Becca Atkinson | From Alcoholic to Recovery Advocate and Host of the Unashamed Alcoholic Podcast

Becca Atkinson | From Alcoholic to Recovery Advocate and Host of the Unashamed Alcoholic Podcast

Becca came from a family that has a history of alcoholism. She knew this growing up and was aware of the possibility of herself falling into that addiction pattern. Up until her early teenage years, everything was pretty normal, but once adolescence was over that’s when the drinking started to kick in for her.

Becca couldn’t just casually drink like the rest of her friends, she had to get drunk. There was no middle ground, and this led to many blackouts and problems every weekend at a young age. Her 20’s were very reckless, bad decision making with relationships, and a party lifestyle with 6 other people at her first house away from home. This quickly escalated and spiraled out of control to new lows in her life.

She rationalized her alcoholism in many ways: She wasn’t drinking in the morning, she didn’t lose her kids and continued to work at her job, so she wasn’t your typical alcoholic, or at least what our modern media portrays as an alcoholic. There’s a lot of stereotypes and misconceptions of what alcoholism actually is, and how it affects different people. She makes the point that we need to make clear to kids & the youth today, that drinking does not have to be a given in your life, and you do not need to feel like it’s abnormal not to drink.

She started to feel like a failure, because she couldn’t control her drinking. She was looking for answers, and looking for a way to get out of her rut. One day, she randomly connected with an old friend who recently got sober, and wanted her to come celebrate her newfound sobriety. She was hesitant at first, but went to the celebration and got inspired to get her life back on track. She went to co-ed AA meetings at first, but had to eventually had to go to all-female meetings to make her feel more comfortable in the recovery process.

After her first interview since her recovery at a local radio station in 2020, she wanted to continue the conversation. Podcasting seemed like a great way for her to get her story out to the masses, in hopes of sharing stories and helping people around the world. Even though she was hesitant at first to put her story out there, not being sure of how people would receive it. She got over that fear, and The Unashamed Alcoholic Podcast was born, and has been going strong for almost 2 years.

This is Becca Atkinson in his own words, on Knockin’ Doorz Down.

For Carlos Vieira's autobiography Knockin' Doorz Down

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/

For 51FIFTY use the discount code KDD20 for 20% off!

https://51fiftyltm.com/

https://www.facebook.com/51FIFTYLTM

https://www.instagram.com/51fiftyltm/

https://twitter.com/51fiftyltm

For more on the Knockin' Doorz Down podcast and to follow us on social media

https://www.kddmediacompany.com/podcast

https://www.instagram.com/knockindoorzdown/

https://www.facebook.com/knockingdoorsdown/

https://twitter.com/kddmediacompany

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUSJ5ooBFqso8lfFiiIM-5g/

For more information on the Carlos Vieira Foundation and the Race 2B Drug-Free, Race to End the Stigma, and Race For Autism programs visit:

https://www.carlosvieirafoundation.org/

https://www.facebook.com/CVFoundation/

https://www.instagram.com/carlosvieirafoundation/

For more on Rebecca Atkinson:

https://theunashamedalcoholic.ca/

https://twitter.com/UnashamedAlc

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