
Overcoming Internalized Shame and Guilt in Bipolar Disorder
10/07/24 • 38 min
Shame, guilt, and self-stigma. Our host, Gabe Howard, may openly talk about living with bipolar disorder, but that doesn't mean he doesn’t feel shame and guilt. In this episode, Gabe and Dr. Nicole Washington dive deep into the lingering guilt many feel after a bipolar diagnosis.
Why do feelings of self-stigma persist, even after years into recovery? From internalized discrimination to societal misunderstandings, Gabe shares how he grappled with his diagnosis and the emotional baggage that followed. Learn how to confront these feelings and, more importantly, find the path to internalizing stability and success. Whether you have a new diagnosis or have lived with bipolar disorder for years, this episode will resonate with anyone seeking to break free from shame and embrace their journey.
Tune in for an honest, no-holds-barred conversation on the real struggles and triumphs behind living with bipolar disorder.
“When we think, I live with bipolar disorder and I'm not smart, I'm garbage, and I'll never achieve, we say it to ourselves. We internalize these messages. So I think that we take the stigma from society, which is like a fire, and then we dump gas on it and then let it burn out of control. And we wonder why it's turning out poorly for us? I think a huge protective factor against guilt and shame is to openly discuss it.” ~Gabe Howard
To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page.
Our Host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author.
To learn more about Gabe, or book him for your next event, please visit his website, gabehoward.com. You can also follow him on Instagram and TikTok at @askabipolar.
Our host, Dr. Nicole Washington, is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where she attended Southern University and A&M College. After receiving her BS degree, she moved to Tulsa, Oklahoma to enroll in the Oklahoma State University College of Osteopathic Medicine. She completed a residency in psychiatry at the University of Oklahoma in Tulsa. Since completing her residency training, Washington has spent most of her career caring for and being an advocate for those who are not typically consumers of mental health services, namely underserved communities, those with severe mental health conditions, and high performing professionals. Through her private practice, podcast, speaking, and writing, she seeks to provide education to decrease the stigma associated with psychiatric conditions. Find out more at DrNicolePsych.com.
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Shame, guilt, and self-stigma. Our host, Gabe Howard, may openly talk about living with bipolar disorder, but that doesn't mean he doesn’t feel shame and guilt. In this episode, Gabe and Dr. Nicole Washington dive deep into the lingering guilt many feel after a bipolar diagnosis.
Why do feelings of self-stigma persist, even after years into recovery? From internalized discrimination to societal misunderstandings, Gabe shares how he grappled with his diagnosis and the emotional baggage that followed. Learn how to confront these feelings and, more importantly, find the path to internalizing stability and success. Whether you have a new diagnosis or have lived with bipolar disorder for years, this episode will resonate with anyone seeking to break free from shame and embrace their journey.
Tune in for an honest, no-holds-barred conversation on the real struggles and triumphs behind living with bipolar disorder.
“When we think, I live with bipolar disorder and I'm not smart, I'm garbage, and I'll never achieve, we say it to ourselves. We internalize these messages. So I think that we take the stigma from society, which is like a fire, and then we dump gas on it and then let it burn out of control. And we wonder why it's turning out poorly for us? I think a huge protective factor against guilt and shame is to openly discuss it.” ~Gabe Howard
To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page.
Our Host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author.
To learn more about Gabe, or book him for your next event, please visit his website, gabehoward.com. You can also follow him on Instagram and TikTok at @askabipolar.
Our host, Dr. Nicole Washington, is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where she attended Southern University and A&M College. After receiving her BS degree, she moved to Tulsa, Oklahoma to enroll in the Oklahoma State University College of Osteopathic Medicine. She completed a residency in psychiatry at the University of Oklahoma in Tulsa. Since completing her residency training, Washington has spent most of her career caring for and being an advocate for those who are not typically consumers of mental health services, namely underserved communities, those with severe mental health conditions, and high performing professionals. Through her private practice, podcast, speaking, and writing, she seeks to provide education to decrease the stigma associated with psychiatric conditions. Find out more at DrNicolePsych.com.
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Bipolar Mixed Episodes: Navigating the Unthinkable
Can mania and depression really coexist? In this episode, our hosts unravel the complexities of bipolar mixed episodes — where mania and depression collide in the same mind, often creating a personal hell for those experiencing it.
Gabe Howard, who lives with bipolar disorder, and Dr. Nicole Washington dive into the complexities of mixed episodes, highlighting that they’re far more than just mood changes. Bipolar mood episodes combine dangerous elements like high energy, impulsivity, and intense hopelessness.
They use vivid analogies, comparing it to mixing vodka and Red Bull — a chaotic blend where alcohol and caffeine each trigger distinct sensations but together create an entirely unpredictable and overwhelming effect. This can help listeners visualize the volatile nature of mixed episodes and why they are so challenging to manage.
Discover why mixed episodes carry a higher risk of suicide and why recognizing them matters. Tune in to learn how this evolving knowledge can lead to better diagnoses, treatment, and ultimately, better outcomes for those living with bipolar disorder.
“When someone is sitting in front of me and I'm trying to figure out, what is this? Is this mania? Is this a mixed episode? And I'll be completely honest with you, a lot of times, mixed episodes don't even come to the forefront of my mind. It's not something I usually say, oh, let me screen for whether this is a manic episode or a mixed episode. In all the chaos of the mania, sometimes the depression parts can get missed.” ~Dr. Nicole Washington
To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page.
Our Host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author.
To learn more about Gabe, or book him for your next event, please visit his website, gabehoward.com. You can also follow him on Instagram and TikTok at @askabipolar.
Our host, Dr. Nicole Washington, is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where she attended Southern University and A&M College. After receiving her BS degree, she moved to Tulsa, Oklahoma to enroll in the Oklahoma State University College of Osteopathic Medicine. She completed a residency in psychiatry at the University of Oklahoma in Tulsa. Since completing her residency training, Washington has spent most of her career caring for and being an advocate for those who are not typically consumers of mental health services, namely underserved communities, those with severe mental health conditions, and high performing professionals. Through her private practice, podcast, speaking, and writing, she seeks to provide education to decrease the stigma associated with psychiatric conditions. Find out more at DrNicolePsych.com.
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Seasonal Bipolar: Can Weather Really Cause Symptoms?
Can the changing seasons impact bipolar disorder, much like they do with seasonal depression? In this episode, Gabe Howard and Dr. Nicole Washington tackle the intriguing question of whether bipolar disorder can have seasonal patterns.
Drawing on the latest research, they explore how seasonal changes affect mood, not just in terms of depression but also mania and hypomania. Dr. Nicole sheds light on the DSM-5's reclassification of seasonal affective disorder and how it now ties into major depressive disorder—and how that relates to bipolar disorder.
From the science behind circadian rhythms to practical tips for managing seasonal mood shifts, including the potential risks of light therapy, this conversation will challenge what you think you know about bipolar disorder and the changing seasons. Tune in to stay updated and discover how understanding seasonal patterns can help make your condition more manageable.
To learn more -- or read the transcript -- please visit the official episode page.
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“Ads for light boxes pop up, and people are going to say, this is amazing. This is a fantastic idea. I'm just going to go with this light box. There is data to support that it helps with depression during this time of year, and all those things are great. It can be wonderful. It can help seasonal depression, but you have to be careful if you have bipolar disorder using a light box. Because it can spark a little hypomania or mania for some people. So you just have to be careful. Make sure everybody involved knows what the potential risks are before you jump into something like that.” ~Dr. Nicole Washington
Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. To learn more about Gabe, or book him for your next event, please visit his website, gabehoward.com. You can also follow him on Instagram and TikTok at @askabipolar.
Our host, Dr. Nicole Washington, is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where she attended Southern University and A&M College. After receiving her BS degree, she moved to Tulsa, Oklahoma to enroll in the Oklahoma State University College of Osteopathic Medicine. She completed a residency in psychiatry at the University of Oklahoma in Tulsa. Since completing her residency training, Washington has spent most of her career caring for and being an advocate for those who are not typically consumers of mental health services, namely underserved communities, those with severe mental health conditions, and high performing professionals. Through her private practice, podcast, speaking, and writing, she seeks to provide education to decrease the stigma associated with psychiatric conditions. Find out more at DrNicolePsych.com.
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