
Amanda Crowell Itliong | Not Dead Yet
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05/05/21 • 73 min
Amanda is a badass human being. Her tagline tells it like it is. #notdeadyet
While you'd be tempted to think this conversation is all about cancer. It is really about how our circumstances define us, and what it really means to be ALIVE.
At 29 years old, living in San Francisco, with her dream job, a husband, and travel, she was taken, quite literally, to her knees by the big-bad C-word, ovarian cancer. Now, at 41 years old, she has been in and out of remission countless times, and lives with the diagnosis of terminal cancer and weekly treatments to prolong the inevitable.
What makes Amanda so incredible is far-reaching beyond her cancer chronicles, it is how she has chosen to show up. While we would all like to imagine the person we'd become when shit hits the fan on repeat, Amanda is who I would aspire to be. She is hilarious, joyful, fierce, and has found powerful ways to create a meaningful life. She is an advocate, an activist, a public speaker, a patient advocate and the kind of person who sends you a hand-made card in the mail to say thanks.
I am honored to have spent time with Amanda in conversation, laughter, reflection and mutual respect. I hope you enjoy her energy and learn from her story.
And remember Amanda's sentiment, while cancer in many ways defines and rules her life, her autonomy, her body, it is in no way the totality of who she is. No one thing is the totality of you.
Where you can connect with her:
[email protected]
Twitter: @MIShouldTalk
IG: MIManda
Helpful links about ovarian cancer....
Helpful links for young adults with any cancer...
Some of my inspiration...
https://gostanford.com/news/2017/6/21/track-field-the-magic-of-tyrone-mcgraw.aspx
http://web.stanford.edu/class/engr110/2020/AlexTung.html
Join me on the Fall Retreat in Northern Michigan November 2-5th.
More info @ annfancy.com/retreat
Check out my Fall Retreat: annfancy.com/retreat
Amanda is a badass human being. Her tagline tells it like it is. #notdeadyet
While you'd be tempted to think this conversation is all about cancer. It is really about how our circumstances define us, and what it really means to be ALIVE.
At 29 years old, living in San Francisco, with her dream job, a husband, and travel, she was taken, quite literally, to her knees by the big-bad C-word, ovarian cancer. Now, at 41 years old, she has been in and out of remission countless times, and lives with the diagnosis of terminal cancer and weekly treatments to prolong the inevitable.
What makes Amanda so incredible is far-reaching beyond her cancer chronicles, it is how she has chosen to show up. While we would all like to imagine the person we'd become when shit hits the fan on repeat, Amanda is who I would aspire to be. She is hilarious, joyful, fierce, and has found powerful ways to create a meaningful life. She is an advocate, an activist, a public speaker, a patient advocate and the kind of person who sends you a hand-made card in the mail to say thanks.
I am honored to have spent time with Amanda in conversation, laughter, reflection and mutual respect. I hope you enjoy her energy and learn from her story.
And remember Amanda's sentiment, while cancer in many ways defines and rules her life, her autonomy, her body, it is in no way the totality of who she is. No one thing is the totality of you.
Where you can connect with her:
[email protected]
Twitter: @MIShouldTalk
IG: MIManda
Helpful links about ovarian cancer....
Helpful links for young adults with any cancer...
Some of my inspiration...
https://gostanford.com/news/2017/6/21/track-field-the-magic-of-tyrone-mcgraw.aspx
http://web.stanford.edu/class/engr110/2020/AlexTung.html
Join me on the Fall Retreat in Northern Michigan November 2-5th.
More info @ annfancy.com/retreat
Check out my Fall Retreat: annfancy.com/retreat
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Marianne Steele | The reckoning of healing beyond the mind***
*** Trigger Warning, this episode contains references to childhood sexual abuse and PTSD.
Marianne Steele's story is one that could fill the pages of a novel. She so graciously allows us to peek inside a story that begins with a traumatic childhood and launches from the era of free love, communal living in none other than San Franciso, and catapulted into an adventure born of her impulse to survive.
Marianne speaks frankly about so often she had met her own trauma from the healing born of the mind and it wasn't until she had a major breakdown of the body in the last few years that she began to truly reckon with what healing looks like, how to self-care and facing the diagnosis of complex PTSD.
Marianne now words as a Shiatsu bodyworker, an energy worker, an intuitive teacher, and a medium.
You can connect with her here: https://www.pacificspirit.de
Referenced in this episode:
The Courage to Heal by Ellen Bass & Laura Davis
Peter Levine Ph.D. and Somatic Experiencing
National Institute for the Clinical Application of Behavioral Medicine (also Peter Levine)
NIACMB YouTube Channel
Healing Trauma and Spiritual Growth: Peter Levine & Thomas Huebl
Spirituality Archetypes and Trauma:
Marianne's blog that documents her early channeling experiences
Check out my Fall Retreat: annfancy.com/retreat
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Melissa Kinney | What if a missed ADHD diagnosis suddenly made your whole life make more sense?
From the parking lot of Costco in the midst of a global pandemic, I received a phone call that has changed my life and changed my beloved friend Melissa's too. What if, after 40 years of living, you realize that much of the ways the world has been so hard are simply because of undiagnosed neurodiversity... even more so, what if much of your overwhelm, anxiousness and depression were symptoms of a missed diagnosis of ADHD.
Women and girls are commonly underdiagnosed in ADHD because we all expect it to look a particular way. We all know that boy from grade school who could never seem to sit still, stop talking, or stay out of trouble. I assumed for much of my life that I had ADD and considered it a strength in many ways, but I was missing some crucial information.
I didn't understand how much of a player it was in my relationships, my ability to keep up with work, motherhood, parenting, and how often it led me to avoid conflict at all costs.
Melissa had a similar experience, though it was never even on her radar until a friend posted about her experience which sent Melissa down a very familiar ADHD rabbit hole of discovery.
In this episode we talk about life before and after diagnosis, all the things that might have bene different and all the ways we are learning to understand ourselves, our children, our lives and look back with perhaps a little more grace.
Wondering if this might be you? Here are some common symptoms in women and girls:
- Daydreaming and in a world of her own
- Difficulty maintaining focus; easily distracted
- Disorganized and messy (in her appearance and physical space)
- Doesn’t appear to be trying
- Doesn’t seem motivated
- Forgetful
- Highly sensitive to noise, fabrics, and emotions
- Hyper-talkative (always has lots to say, but is not good at listening)
- Hyperreactivity (exaggerated emotional responses)
- Looks to be making "careless" mistakes
- Might often slam her doors shut
- Often late (poor time management)
- Problems completing tasks
- Seems shy
- Seems to get easily upset
- Shifting focus from one activity to another
- Takes time to process information and directions; seems like she doesn't hear you
- Verbally impulsive; blurts out and interrupts others
- Appears withdrawn
- Cries easily
https://www.verywellmind.com/adhd-in-girls-symptoms-of-adhd-in-girls-20547
https://www.additudemag.com/category/manage-adhd-life/relationships/
Join me on the Fall Retreat in Northern Michigan November 2-5th.
More info @ annfancy.com/retreat
Check out my Fall Retreat: annfancy.com/retreat
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