nothing matters, and that’s the best news you’ll hear today.

02/07/25 • 23 min

Where we rant about the chaos of existence, depression as a misunderstood roommate, the absurdity of self-help culture, and the freedom of leaning into life's insignificance. Plus, an existential noodle review because why not? Perfect for anyone tired of pretending to have it all together and wanting to vibe with life's messy, raw truths.

Topics Covered: Opening Reflections on Isolation and Human Nature, The host’s candid thoughts on being misunderstood and undervalued. Exploring naivety, optimism, and the realization that some people are just "evil." Existential Meaninglessness, Why nothing matters and how that realization can be freeing. The pressure of meaning, societal expectations, and rejecting them entirely. Self-Help Culture Critique, The toxic cycle of self-help advice: manifesting, journaling, and hustling. Why the idea of "fixing yourself" is just another capitalist myth? Depression as a Feature, Not a Bug, Redefining depression as a permanent existential vibe rather than a "problem to solve." Living with the weight of existence and the beauty of admitting life is a mess. Pop Culture Tangent: Twitter vs. X, Brief commentary on the ridiculousness of rebranding. Freedom in Insignificance, How realizing no one cares can liberate you from societal expectations. Comparing life to a rigged Monopoly game. Raw Thoughts on Trauma and Healing, A personal account of ongoing trauma and rejecting the narrative of redemption. Living life unfiltered, without forcing a happy ending. Noodle Review Interlude, A quirky deep dive into kimchi-flavored noodles. Musings on authentic vs. packaged noodles and seasoning struggles. Finding Small Light Sources in Life, The importance of small joys, like baking, eating, and trying new things. Using passions to create moments of light amidst the void. Closing Reflections, Wishing listeners a good weekend while embracing the chaotic, unpolished essence of life.

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how to time travel without actually doing anything & also maybe lose your mind a little?

ever wanted to time travel but don’t have a delorean, a tardis, or, like, the ability to do science? good news—you don’t need any of that. in this episode, we deep-dive into the absolute glitch that is human perception of time, how memory is just bad time travel, and why déjà vu is basically your brain gaslighting itself. we’ll talk about time loops, reality shifts, mental gymnastics, dissociation as a life hack, existential dread, and why the past isn’t even real (probably). buckle up, because this is your one-way ticket to the void.

topics covered: time travel (but make it psychological), getting stuck in a memory loop like a bad playlist, why your past is fake and your future doesn’t exist, mental speedrunning through life like it’s a glitched-out video game, déjà vu, dissociation, and other fun brain errors, waking up and realizing you’re in a different timeline, how storytelling is just self-imposed reality bending, the universe gaslighting you into believing time is real, & the crushing realization that nothing matters (but also, maybe that’s a good thing?)

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listen to this if you are or feel lost!

In this episode, I question everything: society’s obsession with productivity, my descent into psychosis, and the void we all try to fill by endlessly scrolling. From losing podcast followers over controversial rants to Minecraft nomad challenges and soy milk allergies, this episode spirals deep into the absurdity of modern life. Join me as I wander—mentally, digitally, and literally—trying to find meaning in a world designed to keep us lost. Not all who wander are lost... but maybe we are.

Topics Covered:

Losing podcast followers: rejection or validation? Controversial takes: abortion and the art of making people think. Psychosis, delusions, and the struggle to trust your own mind. Digital wandering: the endless scroll and algorithm traps. Feeling trapped in routines, systems, and government bureaucracy. Minecraft nomad life as a metaphor for freedom. Soy milk allergies: chaos in a cup. The beauty of wandering without a destination. Challenging society’s obsession with productivity and structure. Existential dread disguised as a 2-mile walk. Why we’re all just lost wanderers in a digital wasteland.