My 35th Year

11/24/24 • 15 min

In this moment, are you letting yourself be lead by fear, or by love?
I was supposed to release an album this month, on my birthday, November 14th. I wasn't ready, but after a year of family health scares I let the burden of comparison and the fear of time slipping away push me to try.
It all fell apart of course, being lead by fear never turns out well. When I realised I had to cancel the album launch, I was forced to reflect on how I had got to this point. Why did I feel so desperate to put out this body of work? Why did I insist on pushing myself to complete an impossible task?
Birthdays can do funny things to the mind. I keep telling myself that ageing is a privildge, but I'm not sure I can hear it.

Support the show

✨
Like many neurodivergent people, being perceived, being seen, is a truly difficult thing for me to experience. Despite this, I want to share my music, my art, because I know that when I do, it can help others to process their own experiences. That's why I started this podcast, so that my work could find you, the one who needs to hear it. Thank you for listening 🙏🏻
If you enjoy the podcast and want to support my work, you can:
💜 Connect with me on Insta and let me know what you think of the show
💜 Become a subscriber
💜 Buy me a ko-fi
💜 Listen to my music
💜 Read my blog

Explicit content warning

11/24/24 • 15 min

The Steinpunk Diaries - My 35th Year

Transcript

Entry number 5, the 24th of the 11th, 2024.

I was supposed to release an album this month, on my birthday, November 14th. I'd come up with the idea of releasing an album on my 36th birthday, maybe two years ago, around the same time I started to think a lot about death.

I was 34 and felt like 35 was this huge milestone. I don't even know exactly what made me think that way. It was more like a way that I was feeling. Like, 35 was this really important year. In the b

Generate a badge

Get a badge for your website that links back to this episode

Select type & size

Copy