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The Steinpunk Diaries - Hold Me Now (actually don't though)

Hold Me Now (actually don't though)

The Steinpunk Diaries

06/16/24 • 38 min

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How can I hold this for you
If I can't hold you?

Like a lot of people with sensory issues, I struggle with physical contact. I don't want anyone to touch me, but I feel so left out and alone when I see others doing it. Teenage girls walking down the street arm in arm, friends casually leaning on one another, toddlers being carried by their parents.
So, when a public speaking workshop turned out to be a highly physical affair, I was pushed to consider why I am so averse to being touched, being held, by others.

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06/16/24 • 38 min

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The Steinpunk Diaries - Hold Me Now (actually don't though)

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I only have a transcript of the spoken word only for this episode at the moment, apologies!
*******
I can't.
I've never...
It's not you...
but,
is it me?
When did I begin to stop being so receptive?
Who did I gift with my last freely given embrace?
No hesitation
no pressure
practice needed.
What does it feel like?
To touch
without resistance?
How do you know when to pull back
lean in
give
in.
I want to look
I want to see
I want to

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