After your narcissistic parent died (& wounded masculine energy is coming at you) | ED Recovery

02/22/25 • 62 min

In this episode of the Spiritual Crypto podcast, I talk about recent layers of wounding that have come up as I had an interaction with my estranged mother, who was the Enabler to my Narcissistic father (I was the scapegoat kid).
My narc dad was such a focal point for the family that it wasn’t until after he died that I was able to see the contributions my mom made to the dysfunction and abuse in our family. I hope that sharing this may help other people in similar situations - maybe you’ll be able to identify this pattern more quickly than I did, and save yourself some grief.
I also talk about different manifestations of wounded feminine energy that has been coming at me through people I know, through man-made systems, through the ether, through my own mind/body as I continue my eating disorder recovery, and what I think it means in terms of past lives, Ascension, and transcending capitalism through Seeds.
I hope this helps!

Note: At 1:20ish the word I am thinking of is 'incremental!'

The Patrick Teahan video I mention regarding the Enabling parent and their narcissistic injury:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjr-jh0Cimg

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Note: At 1:20ish the word I am thinking of is 'incremental!'

The Patrick Teahan video I mention regarding the Enabling parent and their narcissistic injury:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjr-jh0Cimg

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The Psychology of Poverty, Healing Narcissistic Abuse (& Manifestation)

Happy 2025 y'all.
In this episode, I talk about what my recent experience with what was, for me, an enormous theft that left me worrying about how I'd pay my basic expenses - and having to ask for help through Seeds as a result - is teaching me about healing what I hope is the core of the wounding I took on while growing up as the scapegoat kid in a narcissistic family structure. I reflect on my own spiral course of progress over the past 5 years or so as we're kicking off 2015.
I also share what I'm learning about manifestation as it relates to this - with some thoughts about past lives - and the psychology of poverty that the old economic system is designed to keep us trapped in.
So Seeds is working to transcend that system, with something kinder. 💗

Next Episode

Almost all the PAST LIVES I can remember (& what they mean for this one) 💗

I thought it would be fun to share a rundown of (almost) all of the past lives I’ve been able to recall so far - and what they’re trying to teach me about my mission in this one.
PARTS of this WERE fun, but it also ended up being WAY harder to do this than I anticipated - both to record, and even more so to edit. I had a ton of challenging, gnarly stuff coming up and the emotional pain was intense.
Almost all of it was about different facets of the way the feminine energy in everyone, regardless of gender, has been damaged by the wounded masculine. I feel like I’m grieving the millennia of suffering this has caused countless people - and the way so few humans alive right now are even aware that this phenomenon exists.
That makes it so important to share this.
The difficult emotions that came up through doing this also made me realize that there’s a lot more still in these lives for me to release and heal.
But the message they teach is I think essential - not just for me, but for all of us who incarnated on Earth at this time to help with Ascension.
So in this video, I go through ~ two dozen of my past lives. I also share how all of this dovetails into Seeds, the economic ecosystem built to transcend the dysfunction in capitalism (and in communism as well), so that it can support us through this transitional period on earth, and beyond.
I hope this helps - and I’d love to hear about your past lives as well.

Here’s Thea Anderson’s website (the practitioner who helped me look at these past lives): https://www.theaanderson.com/