As Loud As I Want: "Powwow Daydreaming" by Faith Jacobs

06/18/21 • 3 min

Welcome to As Loud As I Want, a podcast that reflects the experiences of young women in rural Columbus County, North Carolina through the COVID-19 pandemic. We use spoken word and sound to share what we've been feeling, seeing and hearing in our communities. This podcast was created by a series of workshops where we learned about poetry and the arts of sound. In this episode, Faith Jacobs of Buckhead, NC shares her piece, "Powwow Daydreaming."
This workshop and podcast is funded in part by a grant from South Arts in partnership with the National Endowment for the Arts, with additional support from North Carolina Local News Lab and the Working Narratives Production and Education Fund. Learn more about our work and other audio productions at www.shoresides.org.Produced by Coastal Youth Media, Community CPR, and Faith Jacobs. Hosted by Indya Barfield.
"Powwow Daydreaming"
When I close my eyes,
I hear bells on men's regalias.
I hear them jingling
As they walk around the arena.
On the outskirts,
The men and women are around the drum
As they sing in unison.
I smell the sage,
Burned to bless the grounds.
The leather backing
From the beadwork on my regalia.
I hear the MC announce my category,
Teen Girls Traditional.
The singers prepare to sing
My contest song.
As I hear the first beat,
Boom.
I take a deep breath
And get ready to dance.
We move counterclockwise
To the beat of the drum.
There is a tension and a balance
Between grace and dancing hard.
The more I bend my knees,
The more my shawl sways.
I'm floating.
The first honor beat comes.
I start to bend
Slowly
And as the beat picks up,
I rise,
My heart beating.
I take deep breaths
To keep emotion from my face.
When I open my eyes,
I see the bright green walls of my bedroom.
There will be no dancing this year,
Just the hum of TV.
The whir of the fan.
I am alone with my daydreams of powwows.
Music:
Unsilenced by Ketsa
Sounds:
Foley, Jingle bells, repeated by DB Sound Artlist
Step it Up - Footsteps, Barefoot on Hard Floor, Walking, Slow Steps, Feet Brushing Surface by Fly Sound via Artlist
Parks and Suburbs - Walks, Children Play Voices, Distant Birds and Vehicles by La Burbuja via Artlist
“WARPAINT 3/3 @ Seminole Tribal Fair PowWow 2018” by TurtleIslandsFinest
Designed - heartbeat, dark, distant by Marcello Del Monaco

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As Loud As I Want: "Quarantine" by Indya Barfield

Welcome to As Loud As I Want, a podcast that reflects the experiences of young women in rural Columbus County, North Carolina through the COVID-19 pandemic. We use spoken word and sound to share what we've been feeling, seeing and hearing in our communities. This podcast was created by a series of workshops where we learned about poetry and the arts of sound. In this episode, Indya Barfield of Whiteville, NC shares her piece, "Quarantine."
This workshop and podcast is funded in part by a grant from South Arts in partnership with the National Endowment for the Arts, with additional support from North Carolina Local News Lab and the Working Narratives Production and Education Fund. Learn more about our work and other audio productions at www.shoresides.org.Produced by Coastal Youth Media, Community CPR, and Indya Barfield. Hosted by Indya Barfield. "Quarantine"
Covid changed everything,
our lives will never be the same.
Thinking back to how things
Used to be,
Riding down to Myrtle Beach
Walking to Coastal Grand Mall
Or through Broadway.
How can anyone stay sane?
Wearing masks every day.
The feel of paper against my cheeks,
No smiles from strangers.
It's a different type of pain.
No fun,
No walking the aisles of Wal-Mart
On Columbus Corners Drive.
The sweet smells
From the bakery at the front
As I picked out my favorite
Sugar scrub.
Greeting family members,
Classmates from high school.
No games,
No deep conversations with
Nyasia from Hallsboro,
Trinity from Fayetteville.
My mom says to quarantine,
And I do.
Everyone is beginning to complain.
Out of work,
Out of money.
Checking our bank accounts,
Waiting for the stimulus.
Shortages on toilet paper.
When Whiteville hears
A hurricane is coming,
It's gone:
Bread, water, toilet paper.
This is the same.
Where there's sunshine
There's rain.
Is this a never ending
Pandemic game?
Lost loved ones.
Friends grieve grandmothers.
Broken families.
I try not to focus on it
As I drive to a new job,
Mask on,
Making do with what I have.Music:
Unsilenced by Ketsa
Reflections on the Water (ft. DYEBRIGHT) by SPEARFISHER via ArtlistSounds: Unemployment Claims Rise To Nearly 50 Million Amid Coronavirus Pandemic by NBC News NOW
NC toilet paper maker: ‘We can’t keep up with demand’. By Fox 46 Charlotte
Supermarket - Store Ambience, Checkout, Scanning Products Beeps by Shirley Spikes
Cityscape and Streets - Pedestrian Mall, Walla, Footsteps by West Wolf

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As Loud As I Want: "It's Time To Game" by Aunya Kirksey

Welcome to As Loud As I Want, a podcast that reflects the experiences of young women in rural Columbus County, North Carolina through the COVID-19 pandemic. We use spoken word and sound to share what we've been feeling, seeing and hearing in our communities. This podcast was created by a series of workshops where we learned about poetry and the arts of sound. In this episode, Aunya Kirksey of Bolton, NC shares her piece, "It's Time To Game."
This workshop and podcast is funded in part by a grant from South Arts in partnership with the National Endowment for the Arts, with additional support from North Carolina Local News Lab and the Working Narratives Production and Education Fund. Learn more about our work and other audio productions at www.shoresides.org.Produced by Coastal Youth Media, Community CPR, and Aunya Kirksey. Hosted by Indya Barfield.
"It's Time To Game"
During the pandemic,
I spent a lot of time gaming.
Mystery games, challenge games, story games.
Games that you could just do
Whatever you like.
Some people think it's wrong,
While some say it's life.
No time to fight,
Because that don't feel right.
Make a career out of gaming.
May be ridiculous to some.
I go to another dimension.
It takes away a lot of tension,
Like if you come home
From a stressful day at school,
Wou could just go on your tablet
Or you whatever you have
And play on it.
Some people say I spend a little too much on it.
I'm in the middle about that.
Makes me want to stay in the house more,
But it gave me something to do at home.
To me it's not lame,
So it's time to game.
Music:
Unsilenced by Ketsa
Sounds:
Fortnite Season 5 Solo Win No Commentary Gameplay Mandalorian by Anthony Allen via YouTube
GAMING CAREERS: How to Get a Gaming Related Career // Turn Gaming into a Career by ewby via YouTube