Chasing The Sun

Why is it the ones who did you wrong, show up years later. Six years ago not only did you block me, you also got engaged. You were too scared to tell me, so you told my friend to tell me. I will always be petty because you deserve it. Don’t show back up years later and think I will forgive you because I won’t. What you did, it stung and it hurt. I could have gone to your commander. I could have told the girl you got engaged with who you really are, but did I, no. I had enough of you going through my social medias and going behind my back talking to my friends to know what I am doing. How about you mind your own business. There is reason why I don’t talk to you. Why I don’t follow you or why we aren’t friends. You chose your path, and stay on that path. I don’t care what you have to say. I enjoyed my last six years drama free and not once thinking about you, until you showed back up again. You will have to live with your own consequences of your actions. I was good to you, but you ghosted me, like I never meant anything to you. You threw me away like a piece of trash, so keep your side piece. What you did hurt, and anytime I see your name it reminds me of the pain. All the pieces of me shattered, until one day all the pieces of me weren’t shattered anymore. I just became someone who had no more cares in the world anymore. I was strong, and I stood my ground. No more second chances, one chance was enough. If you screwed up that one chance, I will never give anymore.

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You know you’re good when you no longer ask to see no one. If they don’t text you or respond, you don’t care anymore. I am tired of putting in the effort, being stood up or left in the dark. I don’t care anymore. You will never see me ask to see anyone ever again. Waiting in a restaurant for almost two hours, to no response, why should I care? I am tired of the excuses. You have gotten to the point in your life that being with your husband is the only thing you need or by yourself. You don’t need a large group of friends to be happy. You don’t need to see everyone all the time to be happy either. If they don’t make the effort, then why should I? This is a two way street, it can’t be a one way street. If we can’t meet in the middle, then I am done. I have had my limit. Life is too short to depend on the ones who can so easily leave you in the dark and not even care. They will keep repeating the same way they have treated you since from the beginning, until it either breaks you or makes you realize you deserve better. All of us deserve better, but sometimes we have to be taught the same lesson multiple times, to realize we deserve better and we should do something about it. It’s hard to step out of something you’re comfortable with, but that’s the only way for things to change. Even ending certain relationships because it’s effecting your health. It’s hard to walk away, but sometimes waling away is the only choice we have left. Walking away is when the healing starts, but you if don’t walk away you will never heal.

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No one knows how broken you are, until they can’t find that old version of you again. You are done trusting or letting anyone in. Many would say it’s your fault that those two individuals broke your confidentiality. That the information shared was confidential. They keep showing up, like nothing ever happened. Playing the pity game and acting like they are the victim. They keep on with drama, but many are getting tired of them. Once someone who was your boss, who you trusted. Not only did they betrayed you, they also humiliated you. The whole store now knows my confidential information because you couldn’t keep your mouth shut. You deserve the punishment you got, you deserve what you got. Not only did you ruin your reputation, you destroyed your credibility. Giving you the cold shoulder and never speaking to you ever again, was best decision I have made. Many took my side, it wasn’t about who was innocent. It was the fact I was the bigger person and I handle it like an adult, while you handle it like a child. You are still acting like child. Someone you once knew, will forever be a stranger. I am not in the mood to forgive right now, eventually I will, but this taught me to be closed off. To never trust anyone and to never ask for help. My broken heart will heal, and I won’t have to amend the bridges that were burned. I will open back up once I heal. You won’t find me where I was before. I chose to heal and to move on. You chose to hold a grudge, and it’s destroying you in ever aspect of your life. With a broken heart, I still got back up and kept going on with my life, no matter how painful it got.

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