The ‘Rona Rut Six Months Later: Major Life Decisions and Painful Self-Awareness
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09/24/20 • 27 min
Time Stamps:
00:00 Congrats, you found the beginning of the episode. Yeehaw.
01:55 Describing ‘Rona Rut: The Sequel and how it’s different than the first bout I had.
02:50 My anxiety is up because I don’t have as many opportunities to practice dealing with it.
06:40 Now that I’m cruising on my new meds, I have more time and clarity to evaluate the way I’m living my life and boo, I ain’t feelin’ it. I’m struggling to merge New Elaine with Old Elaine.
08:20 Setting better boundaries while working from home. Taking PTO for mental health
10:30 Self-care waves: dance, making MY OWN TACOS, cleaning up my shit.
12:56 Realizing I have a hard time letting go of items and THOUGHTS WOW.
13:57 Update about if I’m moving or not and also how I’m making big life decisions and not beating them to death like I normally do.
16:43 Existential crisis. What do I want to do with my life once the world opens up again?
18:04 Before I was on the right meds, a lot of my time was spent trying to stay afloat. Now that I’m better, I can’t help but feel like I “wasted” so much time and have to somehow make up for it.
20:32 I’ve become really good at procrastinating on my creative projects and I’m both proud and sad.
24:02 We all get into ruts, even when it isn’t 2020.
25:53 My sick af outro mofos.
Howdy, Heifers! I talked about the ‘Rona Rut, (when you feel stuck and there happens to be a global pandemic and all hell has broken loose), when we were five weeks into quarantine so I wanted to do an update after having been quarantined for six months. I’m out of the practice of using my anxiety muscles--the tools you use to battle the mini anxieties like opening a door to a new place--which started a spiral of “I’M DECAYING MY GOD EVERYTHING I’VE LEARNED IN THE PAST 6 YEARS HAS BEEN WASTED.” This thought was a tad outrageous but it did lead me to make this episode so we can commiserate together! I hope if you're in a rut, you smoothly journey through it, Heifer. Moo, Elaine.
If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me!
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BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order
You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).*
*This is a bold face lie.
*
I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/
Time Stamps:
00:00 Congrats, you found the beginning of the episode. Yeehaw.
01:55 Describing ‘Rona Rut: The Sequel and how it’s different than the first bout I had.
02:50 My anxiety is up because I don’t have as many opportunities to practice dealing with it.
06:40 Now that I’m cruising on my new meds, I have more time and clarity to evaluate the way I’m living my life and boo, I ain’t feelin’ it. I’m struggling to merge New Elaine with Old Elaine.
08:20 Setting better boundaries while working from home. Taking PTO for mental health
10:30 Self-care waves: dance, making MY OWN TACOS, cleaning up my shit.
12:56 Realizing I have a hard time letting go of items and THOUGHTS WOW.
13:57 Update about if I’m moving or not and also how I’m making big life decisions and not beating them to death like I normally do.
16:43 Existential crisis. What do I want to do with my life once the world opens up again?
18:04 Before I was on the right meds, a lot of my time was spent trying to stay afloat. Now that I’m better, I can’t help but feel like I “wasted” so much time and have to somehow make up for it.
20:32 I’ve become really good at procrastinating on my creative projects and I’m both proud and sad.
24:02 We all get into ruts, even when it isn’t 2020.
25:53 My sick af outro mofos.
Howdy, Heifers! I talked about the ‘Rona Rut, (when you feel stuck and there happens to be a global pandemic and all hell has broken loose), when we were five weeks into quarantine so I wanted to do an update after having been quarantined for six months. I’m out of the practice of using my anxiety muscles--the tools you use to battle the mini anxieties like opening a door to a new place--which started a spiral of “I’M DECAYING MY GOD EVERYTHING I’VE LEARNED IN THE PAST 6 YEARS HAS BEEN WASTED.” This thought was a tad outrageous but it did lead me to make this episode so we can commiserate together! I hope if you're in a rut, you smoothly journey through it, Heifer. Moo, Elaine.
If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me!
Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea.
Email: [email protected]
Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below!
BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order
You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).*
*This is a bold face lie.
*
I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/
Previous Episode
An Astrologer Reads Me to Filth: A Journey Through My Birth Chart and Past Lives ft. Insightfully Crystal
Hello, Heifers and Hipster Witches alike! Our favorite Astrologer Crystal Warren is BACK and this time she’s reading ME to FILTH. If you’re new to this mini-series and/or have no idea where to even begin with this topic, I'd recommend starting with the first episode we did, When The World is on Fire, Can You Turn to the Stars?, which covers some of the basics of astrology, FAQs for an astrologer, etc.
Today, Crystal unravels my birth chart, revealing hidden traits I possess, my life’s purpose, and yes, even my PAST LIVES (I know a lot of you were dying to know this after our last episode together!). This is just a taste of how much astrology can explore your life. Since 2020 has been a lot, we’re finding that a lot of people are searching for balance through different avenues. So, Crystal and I thought it would be fun to demonstrate an astrological reading as a potential option!
If you’re curious about what your chart might look like then Crystal is an excellent person to turn to! She does readings and can help narrow in on any questions or problems you may have. You can find her on her website at insightfullycrystal.com and on Insta and Facebook @insightfullycrytsal.
BONUS FUN: I guested on the For Your Reference podcast where we talked about my FAVORITE MOVIE EVER, Anastasia. You can find the episode at fyrpodcast.com. #MenAreSuchBabie #ScrewBartok
If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me!
Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea.
Email: [email protected]
You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).*
*This is a bold face lie.
**But also, can we acknowledge that it’s running again even as ugly as it is right now? Wow, I’m slaying. Slay. Honestly, I don’t think anyone reads these notes but if you do, on my insta post I'll make promoting this episode, leave a tea/coffee emoji and we can just giggle amongst ourselves. #Slay.
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I am not a health professional. I am simply someone who was diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder. Please talk to your friends, family, teachers, doctor, trusted human, etc. if you need help. I also have a resources page on my website that can direct you to different hotlines, therapy websites, and more at https://anguseyetea.com/resources/
Next Episode
100th Episode: Setting Goals and Why I Podcast About Mental Health
Time Stamps:
00:00 Welcome to a long episode. Just know that this was a three-day editing process for me and all I do is talk. I’ve cranked out multi-track episodes with background music in less time than this episode took. I don’t know why. It’s brought on an existential crisis. Anywho, ENJOY.
03:00 We enter the goals portion of today’s episode! I chit chat about my September and why I find making my goals public helpful.
04:13 First Goal Reflection: Creative Sundays
09:05 Second Goal Reflection: Get my shit together and bring back the habits I’ve been working on ever since I started this goals series. (Less Taco Bell, less caffeine, sleep, etc.).
12:01 Kk, time to RAVE ABOUT OCTOBER AHHHH IT’S TIME, IT’S SPOOKY WITCH TIME. We also are in the final quarter of 2020 like bless get me tf out.
13:19 October Goal #1: Purge EVERYTHING. Clean out my apartment, my bad thoughts, and maybe take a shower every now and then.
15:18 October Goal #2: Bring back that glorious routine I used to have with this podcast where it didn’t consume my every waking moment.
17:05 October Goal #3: I make a mantra even though I’m not a fan of mantras. Like, I feel like a big poser when I try to make mantras but I pushed through the fEaR and made one for this month: move. As in, get my ass off of my couch. Not focus on the same thoughts/memories over and over and over again.
21:07 How I made it to my 100th episode with Angus Eye Tea (huzzah!).
23:24 What I’ve learned about podcasting, and podcasting with a mental health disorder (pesky bastard).
- 23:32 Sharing your story can be cathartic but you need to know your boundaries.
- 26:51 It’s okay to not fit in with what a podcast is “supposed” to be. I used to feel like I was too extra and I needed to reign it in to be more successful and now I cackle about that idea while I guzzle wine and edit my episode eight hours before it’s supposed to be released.
- 28:31 Perfectionism needs to die. The joy of podcasting will slowly dwindle if you keep pushing your limits, such as NEVER missing an episode, cutting out every time you breathe because, yes, you are a robot and people can’t POSSIBLY know you breathe my GOD.
- 30:37 The stats or number of likes on an episode don’t matter if I enjoyed the episode I made, good or bad.
- 32:08 Having a podcast provides my week with structure which is great for my mental health! Making an episode is enough motivation for my depressed self to focus on something and accomplish a task, even if at the time it feels like I’m making a crap episode.
34:41 What I’ve learned on podcasting about mental health.
- 34:53 Never try to be what you aren’t. (For me, mental health professional, perfect person, Holier Than Thou, etc.).
- 36:59 Make sure you’re okay bringing up certain topics or stories from your personal life.
- 37:46 Batch recording is the Depressed Podcaster’s elixir.
- 38:53 You will not run out of ideas! Your emotions will change, your reactions will change, and your perspective on anxiety/depression/mental health will change as you grow so don’t be afraid to bring up old topics. Life is ever changing and will provide you with the prompts you need, and that goes for any creator.
39:42 Why do I podcast about my mental health?
41:51 Just another amazing outro. Congrats--you made it to the end! Yeehaw!
Howdy, Heifers! IT’S MY 100TH EPISODE. I love that for such an important milestone, I was three days late on uploading this episode. Oops, my b. But, regardless, I combined the goals episode with a chat about podcasting and sharing your mental health with THE WORLD.
If you enjoy this podcast, please consider giving it a review! It also is incredibly helpful for me to hear what is resonating with you, so feel free to DM me!
Follow me on Insta and Twitter @AngusEyeTea.
Email: [email protected]
Want to support the podcast? Check out our partners below!
BestSelf Co: BestSelf has goal journals, planners, thought decks, and a ton of productivity tools that are extremely helpful for those of us who are anxious and depressed and need some motivation. Use code “HEIFERS” for 15% off your order
You can find the show notes for this episode at www.anguseyetea.com. (They’re usually live by the weekend!).*
*This is a bold face lie.
**But also, can we acknowledge that it’s running again, even as ugly as it is right now? Wow, I’m slaying. Slay. Honestly, I don’t think anyone reads these notes but if you do on my insta post pr...
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