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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories

Am I Broken: Survivor Stories

Papillon DeBoer

We sit with survivors of sexual trauma, who share their stories of abuse and healing.
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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S1Ep2  Brett - "All I Could See Was the Bad Things"
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12/13/19 • 39 min

Brett shares his story of childhood sexual abuse by a babysitter, which he kept secret until adulthood.

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S1Ep13 Tomi - "It Felt Hopeless"

S1Ep13 Tomi - "It Felt Hopeless"

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05/29/20 • 36 min

Tomi shares his journey through flashbacks of incest perpetrated by his mother, and additional sexual abuse incidents outside the home. He describes his struggles with substance abuse and the healing and growth he found through Alcoholics Anonymous, and then Adult Children of Alcoholics. Tomi now understands that he was not born rotten, but that he has trauma symptoms that were a product of sexual abuse.

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S1Ep9 Larry - "My Body Isn't My Own"

S1Ep9 Larry - "My Body Isn't My Own"

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04/01/20 • 40 min

Larry describes being raped and stalked by his RA in Job Corps

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S2Ep2 Angela - "It Feels Like They're Grains of Sand"
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11/01/20 • 53 min

Angela, a Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist, shares her story of a whole spectrum of unwanted and abusive sexual experiences, including date rape as a teenager. She details what was useful in her own healing journey, and how it enables her to work effectively with couples.

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep8 Kat - "I Certainly Lost Faith in People"
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05/02/22 • 39 min

Kat (she/her) shares her story of sexual violation during 4 days of a psychedelic therapy session with a well-known clinician. We discuss the healing she was seeking in the first place, the compounding of trauma, and what she both gained and lost from this experience. She requested to use a pseudonym and to have her voice masked to protect her from retaliation by this licensed psychedelic therapist and his organization.
Support the podcast at patreon.com/papillondeboer

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep7 Red - "I Was Still Gaslighting Myself"
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04/02/22 • 53 min

Red (she/her) shares her story of gaslighting and sexualized violation, including nonconsensual impregnation, by a local predator who refers to himself as a "tantric" healer and teacher. We discuss her journey towards believing in herself and her own experience, recognizing the predator's techniques, and breaking free, including testifying against him in court.
Support the podcast for$5/month at patreon.com/papillondeboer
Find out more about Papillon's work at agencyofchange.net

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep5 Pat - "This Person Held the Trust of So Many"
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01/31/22 • 61 min

Pat (they/them) shares a story long held secret, about their employer and colleague who offered to be their tantric teacher, then lied and manipulated and abused them. Hear how they healed from the trauma of not just that relationship, but also the ejection from that community, and what took them deeper into their own family history and catharsis.
Support the podcast with $5/month at www.patreon.com/papillondeboer and gain access to some particularly interesting behind the scenes out takes from this episode, and others.

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep4 Gabi - "This Has Happened Before"

S3 Ep4 Gabi - "This Has Happened Before"

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01/03/22 • 53 min

Gabi (she/they) calls out two local perpetrators - a friend and community leader who sexually assaulted her during a massage, and the CEO of a solar power company who sexually harassed and assaulted her. We talk about failed community justice processes, and how telling her story and naming the offenders has given Gabi an increased sense of strength and power.
Support the podcast at www.patreon.com/papillondeboer

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep3 Elle - "I Have This Connection With Her, And I'm Betraying Her"
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12/01/21 • 43 min

Elle (she/her) shares her story of a sudden betrayal by her eating disorder therapist, a sexualized violation during their last meeting. She describes the conflict within herself as she receives various feedback from family and friends, and then learning that her other therapist is filing a report against the perpetrator. After a return of previous trauma response behavior, Elle finds her way along her own healing path.
Support the podcast for $5/month at www.patreon.com/papillondeboer

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Am I Broken: Survivor Stories - S3 Ep6 Hannah - "You're Gonna Have to Pay for This"
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03/01/22 • 66 min

Hannah (she/her) shares her stories of childhood sexual abuse from several local church leaders in her small town, including her grandfather. We talk about purity culture, keeping secrets, and self-harm. She describes the difficulties of her healing journey, as well as what has helped along the way, including art.
Support the podcast at patreon.com/papillondeboer for $5/month.

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FAQ

How many episodes does Am I Broken: Survivor Stories have?

Am I Broken: Survivor Stories currently has 38 episodes available.

What topics does Am I Broken: Survivor Stories cover?

The podcast is about Survivor, Health & Fitness, Healing, Society & Culture, Ptsd, Personal Journals, Mental Health, Podcasts and Trauma.

What is the most popular episode on Am I Broken: Survivor Stories?

The episode title 'S3 Ep8 Kat - "I Certainly Lost Faith in People"' is the most popular.

What is the average episode length on Am I Broken: Survivor Stories?

The average episode length on Am I Broken: Survivor Stories is 51 minutes.

How often are episodes of Am I Broken: Survivor Stories released?

Episodes of Am I Broken: Survivor Stories are typically released every 30 days, 1 hour.

When was the first episode of Am I Broken: Survivor Stories?

The first episode of Am I Broken: Survivor Stories was released on Dec 13, 2019.

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