
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
Elizabeth Jane and Deana Lynn
Two Women, One Narcissist, and the Journey to Freedom
In this raw and gripping podcast, Lizzie and Deana—two women who share the painful bond of having been married to the same narcissistic abuser—pull back the curtain on the devastating cycle of manipulation, betrayal, and gaslighting that they endured. Together, they unravel the dark truths of sexual addiction, financial abuse, trauma bonding, and double lives, while sharing how they found the courage to escape and reclaim their power.
Through candid storytelling, heartfelt conversations, and practical insights, Lizzie and Deana shed light on the devastating ripple effects of narcissistic abuse, not just in their lives but in the lives of others who followed. More importantly, they offer hope, empowerment, and tools for healing to those who may feel trapped.
This podcast is not just about survival—it's about rising above the pain to build your best self and your best life. A must-listen for anyone seeking inspiration, solidarity, and the strength to survive or break free.
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Breaking Free; A Story of Resilience
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
06/12/25 • 31 min
In this conversation, three time best selling author, Azadeh Atzberger shares her powerful journey from a troubled childhood marked by bullying and substance abuse to reclaiming her life after escaping an extremely toxic relationship. She discusses the challenges she faced, including addiction, domestic violence, and the struggle to find her voice. Through resilience and support, Azadeh found recovery, rebuilt her life, and now helps others navigate their own healing journeys. Her story is one of empowerment, emphasizing the importance of setting boundaries and embracing peace after trauma. Grab a copy of her books here! https://a.co/d/fTSCEeg
Takeaways:
- Azadeh's early life was marked by bullying and cultural challenges.
- Substance abuse became a coping mechanism during her teenage years.
- She experienced a toxic relationship that involved manipulation and abuse.
- The turning point came when she escaped from her abuser after a traumatic incident.
- Recovery involved confronting her past and reclaiming her voice.
- Azadeh emphasizes the importance of setting boundaries in relationships.
- She highlights the need for self-love and healing after trauma.
- Her journey includes finding faith and purpose in helping others.
- Azadeh's story illustrates the power of resilience and personal growth.
- She encourages listeners to prioritize their peace and well-being.
Chapters
00:00
Introduction to Azadeh's Journey
00:30
Overcoming Childhood Bullying and Trauma
04:01
Struggles with Addiction and Abusive Relationships
08:26
Breaking Free from a Toxic Relationship
17:16
Finding Strength and Purpose in Recovery
21:46
Navigating Relationships After Trauma
27:10
Embracing Peace and Healing
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Episode #6: Are You Being Financially Abused?
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
02/05/24 • 59 min
Money problems are all too common in toxic relationships, but why?
Lizzie and Deana delve into what financial abuse looks like. Lizzie describes a recent relationship where her fiancé used money as a means to severely manipulate and control her.
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Episode #3: When He Uses God To Crush And Control You---Spiritual Abuse
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
01/18/24 • 53 min
Lizzie and Deana discuss spiritual abuse, and how it is used inside of a relationship. Lizzie shares the very painful story of her first marriage, and the way that her ex used the Bible to humiliate, manipulate and control her.
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Episode #32: My Ex Tracked Me, Stalked Me, And Hired People To Hurt Me (So Why Am I Thankful?)
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
08/28/24 • 57 min
Join Lizzie and I to uncover Sally's riveting story of the Ex who did everything he could to isolate, dominate, and control her, even hiring a hit man posing as a landscaper, to end her life. After all of this horrible-ness, Sally is actually thankful for the experience, as she re-framed it, saw it for what it was, and used this as the foundation for a brand new life.
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Episode #34: Are You Aligning With Your Ideal Self, Or Stuck In Your Lowest Habits?
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
10/16/24 • 31 min
What gives you value? What makes you feel proud of yourself? What do you do that makes you feel confident? What actions in your life cause you to hate who you are? Are there areas in your life that rob you of becoming your ideal self?
Join Lizzie and Deana for some thoughtful musings about becoming the best version of yourself, versus giving in to your lower nature.
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Episode #37: Safe Holidays, Strong Families
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
11/15/24 • 21 min
Join Lizzie and Deana as they address the challenges faced during the holiday season, particularly for those in abusive relationships, those who are separated, and those with blended families. We discuss the increase in domestic violence during the holidays, the importance of emotional and physical safety, and how to help your children during the stressful transition of separate homes during the holiday season.
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Episode #39: The Weight Of "What If's"-Navigating Grief, Loss & Regret
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
12/11/24 • 38 min
In this episode of The Matadoras, hosts Deana and Lizzie delve into the complex and often painful topic of grief. They share personal stories of loss, including the impact of losing friends and family members, and discuss the various ways individuals cope with grief. The conversation emphasizes the importance of healthy grieving practices, the necessity of communication, and the significance of supporting others who are grieving. Through their experiences, they highlight the inevitability of grief and the importance of finding ways to heal and give back in the face of loss.
Takeaways
- Grief is a universal experience that everyone faces.
- It's important to have tools to cope with grief.
- Grief can manifest in unexpected ways, even years later.
- Talking about grief can aid in the healing process.
- Guilt and blame often accompany grief, but they are unproductive.
- Healthy grieving involves facing emotions rather than suppressing them.
- Support from others is crucial during the grieving process.
- Regret can be a heavy burden; it's important to let it go.
- Grief can change how we view relationships and life.
- Finding ways to give back can be a cathartic part of healing.
grief, loss, healing, emotional health, support, coping mechanisms, personal stories, mental health, relationships, healing process
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Episode #40; The Lonely Dark; Finding Your Way Out of Depression.
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
01/10/25 • 42 min
In this conversation, Deana and Lizzie discuss the profound themes of grief, loneliness, and depression, particularly as they navigate personal struggles and the importance of vulnerability. They share their experiences and insights on how to cope with these feelings, emphasizing the need for support, self-care, and community. The discussion highlights the significance of evaluating life changes, seeking help, and finding ways to combat loneliness while fostering connections with others.
Takeaways
- Grief and loneliness are universal experiences that many face.
- Acknowledging depression is a crucial first step in healing.
- Personal struggles can often feel isolating, but sharing can help.
- Support from friends and family is vital during tough times.
- Making lifestyle changes can significantly impact mental health.
- Finding joy in small daily positives can aid in recovery.
- It's important to seek professional help when needed.
- Cutting out stressors can lead to a healthier mindset.
- Building a supportive community can alleviate feelings of loneliness.
- Self-care is essential for emotional well-being.
Keywords: grief, loneliness, depression, mental health, support, personal struggles, self-care, community, emotional health, resilience
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Episode #41: The Power Shift: Recognizing & Breaking Free from the Victim Role
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
01/23/25 • 41 min
In this conversation, Lizzie and Deana explore the concept of victim mentality, discussing its origins, signs, and how it manifests in relationships and life circumstances. They emphasize the importance of recognizing and breaking free from this mindset to reclaim personal power and foster growth. The discussion includes practical strategies for overcoming victimhood, such as setting boundaries, focusing on self-care, and building a supportive network. The conversation concludes with a call to action for listeners to empower themselves and take control of their lives.
Takeaways
- Victim mentality often stems from childhood trauma or neglect.
- Recognizing signs of victim mentality is the first step to change.
- Focusing on self-care and personal growth is crucial.
- Setting boundaries is essential in toxic relationships.
- Building a supportive network helps in overcoming victimhood.
- Letting go of past grievances is necessary for healing.
- Fear and anxiety should not dictate your life choices.
- Empowerment comes from taking responsibility for your own happiness.
- Positive affirmations can help combat negative self-talk.
- Creating a battle plan is vital for overcoming life challenges.
Key Words: victim mentality, empowerment, personal growth, relationships, overcoming fear, self-worth, mental health, resilience, healing, self-acceptance
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Episode #49: Toxic Dating & Red Flags: An LMFT's Survival Guide
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)
04/04/25 • 38 min
In this conversation, Carla Litto, a marriage and family therapist, discusses the signs of narcissism in romantic relationships. She explains how narcissists often present themselves charmingly at first, but their true nature reveals itself over time. The discussion covers the importance of recognizing red flags, the dynamics of love bombing, and strategies for approaching loved ones who may be involved with narcissistic partners. The conversation emphasizes the need for self-awareness and careful observation in relationships to avoid emotional manipulation and abuse. In this conversation, Carla Litto and the hosts discuss the complexities of relationships with narcissists, focusing on how these dynamics affect friendships and family ties. They explore the manipulative behaviors of narcissists, the importance of recognizing these patterns, and strategies for protecting oneself and loved ones. The discussion emphasizes the need for awareness and self-protection in the face of emotional abuse, while also recommending resources for further understanding and coping with narcissistic relationships. To contact Carla, or access her book, click below!
https://www.carlalittotherapy.com
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Podcast Takeaways:
- The honeymoon phase can last from three to six months.
- Love bombing is a tactic used by narcissists to gain control.
- Recognizing red flags early can prevent deeper emotional harm.
- It's important to slow down relationships when red flags appear.
- Approach loved ones with finesse when discussing concerns about their partners.
- Planting seeds of doubt can help loved ones see the truth.
- Not all love bombing is indicative of narcissism; context matters.
- Pay attention to how a partner treats others, especially friends and family.
- Self-reflection is crucial for healthy relationships. It's important to get to know friends and family interactions.
- Narcissists often charm those close to you to build alliances.
- Recognizing manipulative behaviors is crucial for self-protection.
- Narcissists can use your loved ones against you.
- It's essential to protect your close relationships from narcissists.
- People may not see the harm in a narcissist until it's too late.
- Setting boundaries with those who associate with narcissists is necessary.
- Understanding narcissism can help in future relationships.
- Reading about narcissism can provide valuable insights and strategies.
- Humor can be an effective way to discuss serious topics.
Chapters
00:00
Understanding Narcissism: An Introduction
01:03
Identifying Narcissistic Traits
04:17
The Honeymoon Phase and Its Duration
08:11
Recognizing Red Flags Early
11:50
Navigating Relationships with Narcissists
12:57
Approaching Loved Ones in Toxic Relationships
18:40
The Dynamics of Love Bombing
19:09
Signs of Love Bombing in Early Dating
24:55
Evaluating Relationships: A Holistic Approach
25:31
Understanding Relationships with Narcissists
29:03
The Impact of Narcissism on Family Dynamics
32:00
Navigating Friendships and Family After a Narcissistic Relationship
40:01
Strategies for Dealing with Narcissists
42:41
Final Thoughts and Recommendations
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How many episodes does Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) have?
Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) currently has 58 episodes available.
What topics does Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) cover?
The podcast is about Control, Society & Culture, Abuse, Divorce, Podcasts, Cheating, Self-Improvement, Education and Relationships.
What is the most popular episode on Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)?
The episode title 'Episode #30: Calming The Stress Hormones To Lose The Weight!' is the most popular.
What is the average episode length on Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)?
The average episode length on Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) is 40 minutes.
How often are episodes of Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) released?
Episodes of Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) are typically released every 8 days, 4 hours.
When was the first episode of Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast)?
The first episode of Surviving Toxic Relationships Podcast (Formerly The Matadoras, No More Bull Podcast) was released on Dec 31, 2023.
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